Location : Bedroom, pure silence (it does get to you after a while)
After eating a pretty big slice of cheesecake, my heart has gotten a bit better. Yes, i'm currently in pain.
Can you imagine holding on to one precious moment of sand? Yes sand, imagine that. Once you stick your sand in it, you feel this warm feeling that you don't want to let go of. When you try holding on to it, it just easily slips away. I guess i'll later call it invincable sand.
Well anyway, it's 01.39 AM, and i'm supposed to be determined to sleep. About that whole sand metaphor thing, it's kinda happening to me.
Gw kecewa. Bener2 kecewa. Satu orang yang gw kira dan gw harap bisa bertanggung jawab atas omongannya, ternyata hanyalah just another hypocrite. Orang munafik! dan itulah yang membuat gw kecewa. dan sakit hati. emosi.
Well surely i can't spill the beans all in here. But kira2 inilah yang gw rasain. I'd really love to turn the past. I'd really love not to be so vulnerable and ignore my fundamental principes : Strong and Independent!
But he so easily turned me way around, and left me hanging like a wet towel - used and soaked. And i still fell for him. all his crappy jokes, all his unacceptable behavour. Which i totally regret. And to think, from day to day, he still made me fly. Oh what a big waste of time.
I'd really love to scream right in front of his face right now, but luckily, the cheesecake my sister bought (and which i found in the fridge) helped sooth my soul. at least for now. Especially the fruits on top, they made me alert and sent me into a short state of insomnia.
Oh someone please fly through my window, and take me to Neverland.
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